We’re Back & Feeling As Vulnerable As Prez Candidate Christopher Life

We’re back, bunnies! Our host asked us to upgrade three site elements involving both production and staging that were not initially compatible with our theme. But much tinkering was done and we’re ok … for now.

Re: the previous post, a name has been redacted – yes, there is now a [REDACTED4], which will all be explained in the next RBD post.

But for now, ponder Christopher Life’s incredible vulnerability! (Jesus H. Christ, can the woos pick a new word?)

I am challenged to let more vulnerability in. It’s hard. True vulnerability cuts so deep into who we think we are that it’s unbearable – because in many ways it literally is. The person that existed before the episode of vulnerability can not bare it and seems to not exist in the same way on the other side.

I still want to fight vulnerability kicking and screaming often. I do my best to let it all in. I weep often – but resist often as well – when I really feel like I have something to protect.

In vulnerability I fear annihilation, and despite years of cultivating death-acceptance practices – I’m still afraid daily.

I pray for the courage to get into deeper, truer vulnerability, faster in any given situation. In saying this my stomach churns with unease.

Intimacy and vulnerability lay at the core of everything I’m saying yes to and the quality of what we create will certainly be proportional to our earnest devotion of living into our ideals.

Allowing ourselves to die, together we rise.

Christopher/Cory’s stomach is churning with unease? I told him and Adelle/Sophia not to eat at Taco Bell! Thankfully, a couple of Tums should settle that stomach, as well as ease Christopher’s feelings of deeper, truer vulnerability. Two problems solved! That’ll be $1499.99, but we’ll take $200 off if Christopher pays before 5 p.m. today.

BOOK! Club

I’m currently reading Tom O’Neill’s mammoth, compelling “Chaos,” about Charles Manson’s lost year in San Francisco, when The Family was created. Cory’s final sentence above is very similar to convicted killer Susan Atkins’s mantra about letting oneself die in order to be reborn – I’m too busy to look up her exact words. In fact, there are entire passages in O’Neill’s book that read as though he were writing about Julia Allison’s “tribe” and not the murderous Manson followers.

It’s worrisome!

RS Recommends: ‘Chaos: Charles Manson, the CIA and the Secret History of the Sixties’


  1. Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

    In the second pic, his hair looks like a cheap rug. But I’m glad we’re back in business!

      • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

        I feel zero pity, sympathy, whatever

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            Cryface fauxtos. And beg for money

          • On at least three occasions when woos were injured or became ill they had to run GoFundMe cryface campaigns because they had no insurance and the millions of dollars they’d made doing x had magically disappeared.

          • Being homeless and without income to support his child are real problems. Of course, I doubt he sees it that way.

          • Do any of these clowns have jobs? As in, they work and receive pay and support themselves and pay their own way in life? Who among them actually works? It doesn’t have to be an 8-5 office job.

            Ali Scamti: she’s a sleazy grifter but I think she does actually have clients to whom she sells her services

            Meshberg: I’m sure his family can afford to support him, but he’s also written books and has various vanity sex projects so I give him a pass

            Julia Allison, Ariel White, Jaaaahhhs Johnson, Myka McDunkle, Sofia Life, etc: What do they do? How do they afford their California beach houses and world travel? Do they just crash with rich friends/boyfriends?

            The Kittays: family money? Burning Man Corporation?

            Do ALL these people have rich parents? Do they just tell them, “I’d like my inheritance now, please, so I don’t have to work?”

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            Few of them come from legit wealth. The ones who can’t afford basic medical care and have to do weepy Go Fund Me videos obviously do not. Donkeys parents seem to only support her to a certain level, not the style to which she wishes she could become accustomed. If there were any real old money in the Booger family, she would never shut her gaping maw about it

          • I should think they’re suffering the real problem of staying one step ahead of their stiffed investors, but maybe those are primarily family members, who coincidentally don’t go to burning man anyway?

          • What I don’t understand is that there are very likely plenty of opportunities for them to get jobs with existing companies that share their passions. Medimeals was a great concept that failed in execution, so why isn’t he pounding on the doors of the companies who are actually succeeding in making products like this and offering to work for them?

            It seems to boil down to ego and greed, even though they’d never want to admit it. He wants to be an OMG founder, with all the cred and perks that go with it. The Tesla and their scoping out digs in Santa Barbara while still on seed money was the first clue about their real motivations. Save the planet but live high and large while you’re doing it. Burning man tickets are just status symbols among this shallow crowd.

          • And now that king-sized ego has Master Cryface and his automaton living out of their car while living out a delusional fantasy about becoming the Gwyneth Paltrow of the White House. I feel so greg damn sorry for his kid.

  2. Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

    Btw, any upcoming intel on Burning Man?

    • We haven’t heard anything yet but hope that Christopher and Sophia are joyously experiencing their BM rebirth!

    • Beaver Noodles man No Vwls there to “rent” their tent and definitely not poke cuter tinier youngers… while she at home sadz grooming her eyebrows and pontificating woke. cue pics of Pigeon for likes to calm the goddess’ woes

          • Now, now, their three-month commitment container ended long ago and isn’t a three-month relationship in Wooville equal to five years in the real world?

            They lived, they loved, they lost.

    • Rob Shillerman there sans DuranDuranite. His hubris of pontificating like some expert on climate catastrophe and this and that is insufferable when he has the carbon footprint of a medium sized country. As they say, it is to laugh.

      • Rob Shillerman! I love it! And I’m still wondering who got dumped but my money’s on her. Shillerman just got tired of ol’ nutcase Myka.

  3. I am very glad we are back on the air.

    Two things:

    1) Christopher looks positively malnourished. I want to buy him a sandwich, specially if it means he’ll shut up for a few minutes.

    2) My daughter (4.5 years) loved the picture of the donkey on hammock so much that she wanted to meet him/her!
    She asked the baby donkey’s whereabouts, I had to explain it was a picture of a donkey somewhere on the Internet, but that I had no way to locate it.

    Can’t wait to hear more on [REDACTED4]!

    • Christopher’s piece always looks sickly to me. I know she did some performance art thing with Jaahass Magic about being forced to be skinny. Maybe he’s overidentifying with her? After all, these two are the Randy and Evi Quaid of the California woo set.

      [REDACTED4] is very reasonable and very pleasant. I cannot believe Dodi let this one get away.

      • She still could be extraordinarily shallow. According to Facebook I have multiple friends in common with her, mostly fellow San Franciscans but oddly enough also a non-SF person with whom she appears to be very close based on the number of photos. The individual in question is nice enough but extremely wealthy (inherited) and very superficial, and well… like attracts like.

        • (Pointing this out not to harp on her and I respect her desire to remain [REDACTED], but because Dr. Dadbod could nevertheless still have a thing for really, really, really superficial and high-maintenance women.)

          BTW, I know REDACTED1 and REDACTED2 are particular exes, but I’ve forgotten who REDACTED3 is….?

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            At least this woman appears to have a few redeeming qualities. And that puts her miles ahead of Donk

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            Further proof that everyone who associates with Donk comes out worse for it, sooner or later

          • Sometimes they have to learn the hard way. ::insert cory cryface emoticon here::

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            Those who white knight for her are the ones hit the hardest

  4. I’m still laughing at the lazy donkey shaking his head “Noooo” in the previous post! It’s totally Julia- “My parents told me to get out of bed and get a job with healthcare insurance and I said NO, NO, NO!!”

  5. Finally, thank Greg RBD in effect! I thought Petey was winning for a sec.

    OT Jena La Dum donated $5 to her sister’s cause and posted about it. She was the first to donate so it showed $5 out of $100000 or whatever donated, what a cheapskate.

    • Was it five dollars or worse yet, was it just four dollars?

      I wonder because the other day I saw where someone’s FB-generated fundraiser had garnered exactly 1 dollar and when I looked into it, it appears to be an automatic FB thing that FB donates 1 dollar when you use their gimme getter.

  6. I did think Daddy Pete had waved his lawyer wand and shut things down so the love of his life, ahem…his daughter…wouldn’t mess up her last chance to “marry well”.
    Oh well. Good luck Donks.

      • Oh, Brayella, this looks fascinating. True crime embedded in sociopolitical critique. I shall check it out!

      • I’ve known much of what the book covers for a few yrs now…
        It’s a trifecta for me:

        *. Linda’s back story is truly fascinating
        *. I find the Sociopolitical aspect to be phenomenal
        *. My family may have known one of the stolen children

        I hope you guys enjoy it (I really think you will.

    • After the O’Neill’s page turner, I’m interested in more Manson – did I really just write that? Thinking of picking up Jeff Guinn’s well-received bio.

      • I started to say Manson is definitely having a moment right now, but then I remembered sneakily reading Helter Skelter at ten years old (or somewhere around there). Manson has *always* been having a moment. Right now maybe it’s that very particular moment in the 60s?

        • It’s also the 50th anniversary of the Tate-LaBianca murders and Tarantino’s wack, occasionally wonderful ONCE UPON A TIME … IN HOLLYWOOD has gotten rave reviews and generated substantial box office for a nearly three-hour film.

        • See, I remember being glued to the newspaper over breakfast every morning while this was been covered, and I realize I’m giving my age away now, but I was even younger (just barely) than your young you when you read HS.

          It actually distresses me that I have allowed so many things to erode my once-voracious appetite and attention span for reading — anyone else here go thru that?

    • I realize this is only tangentially related, but I’m going to see Tarantino’s latest movie tomorrow; if any catladies have any insights about that, I’d be very interested.

      I remember when I first read about Manson (who of course isn’t such a “household name” over here as in the US) when I was maybe 16 and how much gobsmack and “overwhelm” I experienced. It was a chapter in a book about various famous crimes from all over the world and it struck me as the most horrible one, hands down.

      • I think ONCE UPON A TIME is Tarantino’s strangest film. There are great moments but also ridiculous stuff that should have been left on the cutting room floor. The less you know about the film before seeing it, the better.

        • Interesting, thanks! I’ve read two positive reviews, one from the possibly best known local critic who is kind of famous for hardly ever liking anything, and she LOVED it. I can’t remember the last time I read such a glowing review from her.

          • Critics who like the film are quite nutso about it, but in a good way, and ONCE UPON A TIME is clearly geared towards cinephiles.

          • I loved it! I’ve seen in twice in theaters. And yes, the less you know, the better it is! I very much enjoyed Brad and Leo’s relationship in the film. I almost love it as much as Jackie Brown.

          • Well Gilly, we do disagree on one that I will NEVER get over 😉 Pam Grier is a national treasure.

          • OMG MINE TOO!!1! I got such a massive bikissual crush on Pam Grier thanks to that movie. She’s *literally* the only woman who ever got me all hot and bothered.

          • Another Jackie Brown fan here. I think if Tarantino only made films based on existing works he’d be much better.

          • My Tarantino chart (of the movies he directed) looks like this:

            JACKIE BROWN
            (big gap)
            Pulp Fiction
            Kill Bill (both volumes)
            Reservoir Dogs
            (big gap)
            Grindhouse (God, I hated that)

            I haven’t seen any of those from the last decade, partially because I hated Grindhouse so much. But I am getting quite excited about Once Upon a Time. Really hope I won’t be disappointed (how can we help, Quentin?)

          • This is straying from the subject, but I’ll take this opportunity to plug a favorite app: “JUST WATCH” — Great for both the cinephiles and the bingers of series, because it tells you who is streaming whatevs or the movie times at your local theater — A quick and easy way to build a really good watchlist on the fly based on these recommendations.

          • Helena, here are my Tarantino rankings:

            1. Jackie Brown
            2. The Hateful Eight
            3. Kill Bill Vol. 1 (all signifier, a semiotic field day!)
            4. Inglourious Basterds
            5. Pulp Fiction
            6. Django Unchained
            7. Once Upon a Time … in Hollywood
            8. Kill Bill Vol. 2
            9. Reservoir Dogs
            10. Death Proof

          • Seems like we have pretty similar Tarantino tastes, Gilly…. I just realized that when I say “Grindhouse,” I actually mean “Death Proof”; the movie was called something like “Auto Killer” here. At any rate, wasn’t that one awful? All that boring yakking, it felt like it lasted at least seven hours. I’ve rarely been so disappointed by a movie. I know that if not for QT my expectations would have been lower, but then again I probably wouldn’t have even given it a chance.

            I take it you really liked The Hateful Eight? I’ve heard mixed reviews of that.

          • Auto Killer? HA HA HA! That’s so apropos. Re: The Hateful Eight, some folks don’t like it because the film isn’t a western; rather, it’s an Agatha Christie drawing room mystery masquerading as a western and I absolutely loved it. Saw Eight in Los Angeles with a real projectionist projecting the 70mm print. I believe tickets were an outrageous $20 per person but well worth it.

          • Hmm, that sounds quite intriguing and especially to me since I am currently working on a major work project involving Agatha Christie. I’ve spent most of the past two or three months focusing on Agatha Christie and will continue to do so for at least one or two more. So perhaps watching The Hateful Eight would totally NOT be procrastinating but research??

          • Speaking of Agatha Christie, has anyone read her Absent in the Spring (writing as Mary Westmacott)? It’s about this busy, cheerful, self-satisfied loving wife and mother left to her own devices due to travel complications, and she is forced to look back on episodes and situations in her life only to realize she’s not the person she thought she was. It’s as riveting as any thriller/mystery, and I have read it several times over the years. Unfortunately, I think it’s out of print and not on kind!e, but used copies are available on Amazon.Highly recommend.

          • YES! That is a really powerful book. I read it years ago and I remember I found it quite scary in how well it described the self-deception, so much so I’m not sure I want to read it again.

            Just the other week I finished another Mary Westmacott book, An Unfinished Portrait. It didn’t hit me as hard as Absent in the Spring, but it’s probably the most autobiographic book that Agatha ever wrote (maybe except her Autobiography, I guess). If you know or care to know anything about her first marriage and how it ended, there’s some really interesting stuff about that in the book. Many of her genuine childhood memories, too.

  7. I hope he really does not have offspring. That’s a 5150 right there, yeesh. And I don’t mean living with the kids in a Volkswagon La Mirage 5150. Maybe he and Swiss Miss are bros

      • Christopher Cory indeed has a son. I vaguely remember some brouhaha involving the kid’s mother. Grifty might have the deets.

        • Way back when we first became aware of him, he was splitting w/ex wife, and/or having custody issues. On FB he posted a number of pics of him with with his young son, making profound proclamations about fatherhood, and she blasted him for posturing and saying that he wasn’t holding up his end. Typical kind of divorce/custody drama. I don’t follow what he is doing beyond what pops up here, so I have no idea how involved or not he is with his kid now.

  8. Two days to the burn! Time flies when you are having fun.

    Are we getting a playa proposal?

    Or will 2020 be yet another never-the-bride year for the Donkey?

    Either way, pass the popocorn.

  9. I googled Christopher Life and was surprised to find RBD in the first slot on page one. Slot two is a page from evolutionaryleaders.com. My, my, the ego that wrote the emissary of light’s bio! This is not a parody:

    Christopher Life is a dedicated, pure, and tireless emissary of light who is deeply in service to conscious evolution. Christopher studied International Conflict Resolution in college. He has led international endeavors, for-benefit businesses that include events, food services, medical technology invention, and community initiatives all focused on the betterment of humanity and in support of the multi-sector systemic transformation of society.

    Christopher is also deeply committed to his own conscious evolution in service to his own leadership for the benefit of All. He embodies radical responsibility, inspiring courage, and does not shy away from his own edges or what’s needed for the whole. He has a remarkable ability to help diverse groups of people lean-in and dive deep to find their common ground in service to All Life. He also has an amazing ability to articulate what he’s seeing and sensing in a way that helps others grasp complex systems.

    Christopher’s life experience has prepared him well to participate in, and lead, political initiatives to rebirth humanity. Christopher is the visionary, catalyzer, and the founding steward of a new USA political party called OneNation Party USA. OneNation USA is a political party dedicated to bringing sanity, wisdom, compassion and systemic transformation into politics. The party will begin with a public launch campaign during the US presidential elections and holds a multi-decade vision of the conscious evolution of the United States in service to All Life.

          • I majored in DJing and modeling. Wait, no I didn’t! I’m confusing my college years with Ali Shanti’s daughter’s homeschooling. I hate when that happens!

          • I worked with someone who told me that her college-age son was going to be a philanthropist when he graduated.

          • Unicorn Studded Rainbow Named Shirley (NOT "Julia Allison")- 1st Ever Commenter on the New Site! 🎉🎊🍾 (NOT Ali Shanti/Alexis Neely/Alexis Katz)

            There’s a 60-something woman on FB & Twitter who describes herself as a humanitarian and actually has that on business cards. She also claims to run an NGO that helps refugees and also is a counterterror expert.

          • Helena, once again I am reminded of why I adore you so. My small child has begun proceeding her announcements with ‘Good news, everybody!’ in a booming professorial (kind of) voice. And so I feel that my job as a parent is complete.

        • Hroswitha, I hope you have video after video of your little one yelling out, “Good news, everybody!” Because it’s so greg darn adorable!

    • In the words of the great Margaret Smith: “They say the wages of sin are death. But after taxes, it’s more kind of a tired feeling.”

  10. Self-deception, yes, very succinct description of what that book is about, Helena. It has been interesting to me to read it at different periods over the years, definitely has had an impact on my own self-perception. (It made me uncomfortable, and that’s why I had to read it again and again.)
    I think I am somehow drawn to this theme (among other favorites are Pale Fire and This is Spinal Tap — and of course the subject of this very place where we gather, A Donkey and her shenanigans–all of which I appreciate for the humor inherent in self-deception v. reality. Absent in the Spring definitely has humorous moments but is ultimately pretty dark.
    Sorry, didn’t mean to get all academic on ya.
    P.S.: Come prepared for class discussion, Alice Marwick officiating.


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