Is it weird that I have girl crushes on *most* of the gorgeous, intelligent women my exes date after (or before) me? Shouldn’t I hate them?!
Yes, it’s fucking weird, and just another example of you attempting to cling onto your exes in whatever way possible, even if it’s to convince yourself you simply LOVE his next girlfriend and want to be Pretty Pony besties with her. You do this because you want people to think you’re nice, when actually you’re unwell.