RBDer Curling Irons at Dawn first alerted readers that self-proclaimed erotic empress Jena la Fraud is single again. Quelle surprise!
I just read an Abraham Hicks quote that “the best thing you can give someone is your happiness.” A timely reminder of an easily forgotten obvious truth.
This is especially relevant for me at present, as my partner and I will be living apart for 2019, in different continents, and I feel very sad about that. We are both clear that we need to be in different places for the time being, but this clarity does not defeat the sadness and loneliness that weighs on me, at least not yet. It’s an evolution, day by day.
My mission is to feel, embody and live my happiness, even without his divine presence in my daily life. I love him profoundly and that has not changed. The love is present, just not shared daily rhythms of life, the hand to hold or shoulder to lean on. God, I miss him.
This is the Koan of my spiritual journey at present.
This weekend I’m engaging in an amazing Brazilian Zouk dance festival in Reno. I’m surrounded by curious, open-hearted people.
I am the butterfly and the empty space.
I possess deep knowing and I know nothing.
I am the sun in my heart.
I am the water in my tears.
I am the blood of my moon.
I am the wind beneath my wings.
I am the Earth under my feet.
If you’re in the Bay Area, think of me when you gather.
Love your sister in magic, xo Jena
Who could have foretold that Sacha Nielsen, AKA DJ Deadbeat Dad, would abandon Our Lady of Insurance Fraud, only to take up with another woo goddess on another continent? Was the marriage a sham all along? Did the “musician” and cacao master only want a green card?
Not to worry! Like Gloria Gaynor, Jena will survive:
Poetry to help make sense of our current physical separation. I feel a bottomless anguish that I am trying to dissolve with dance and music. I pray for strength to navigate the distress in my heart.
“You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.”
By Khalil(sp) Gibran
Together evermore, eh, Jena? Or at least until husband #4 comes along. #zoukyourpainaway #somethingtypicalishappening